Fixing my gaze.
Something that has really been on my heart today is my ability to continue growing and changing in life, versus my option to become comfortable, and eventually stagnant. Mind you, it's not necessarily a black and white decision. Comfort and ease are not always something that we intentionally choose over growth, they are things that we fall into. Lately I feel myself doing that. Falling into the easy road, because I just am not "fired up" enough to really think about what I want, what kind of person I want to become, and what decisions help and hinder that. A lack of growth is what we experience when we go auto-pilot, and auto-pilot is my bestie. Auto-pilot means that I don't have to get serious, I don't have to ruffle feathers, and I don't have to take risks. I can just sit back and get by; not thrive, not be crazy excited about anything, but get through. As I was driving to work this morning, I began to really think about some decisions that I have to make, and how I was feeling inclined to go the simpler route... I thought to myself, "Why not? It's the least risky! No one will get hurt or upset for sure!". I immediately had to stop myself– Is that how I want to live? Do I want to choose a certain life path, because it will be the least (temporarily) painful? No, no, no. That's all wrong.
“The righteous keep moving forward, and those with clean hands become stronger and stronger.” - Job 17:9
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.” - Hebrews 12:1-2
One of the biggest and loudest lies that the enemy uses against me is that I am just the same old person as I have always been. He whispers softly... You haven't changed. You don't do much. You're not very effective. You aren't going anywhere. No one really cares about you. You've wasted time. You've made ignorant choices.
Sometimes it's so incredibly hard to call those things out as lies. Why? Because he knows my insecurities and my weak areas. He knows exactly where my doubts lie, and he knows that if he just taps that first domino, I'm done. Game over. So when I have the slightest glimmer of wisdom, and I realize that these things are not truth, I have to start coming up with a battle plan. I have to know how to fight back when those lies start creeping into my head. I love this verse in Isaiah:
“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old.” - Isaiah 43:18
It spoke so much truth over me today. So short and simple, but exactly what I needed to hear. God has done a great work in my life, I am not the person I once was; I may not be the person that I want to be, but He isn't finished with me yet. I have to press on. I have to fight the good fight. I have to look forward, and not allow myself to look back. I have to go after the big things. The hard things. Those are the ones that are so very worth it.